It's A MessyLove

A day i will never forget for the rest of my life

2011-10-06T21:45:00.003+08:00

Just came back from hatyai. really had fun there, although somethings happened, but overall, you made me love that place and you made me know how to take care of you. i hope you will give me your number and i hope everything will turn out fine, please take care of yourself, if you dont know how to drink, please dont drink too much. i love you .

2011-05-30T13:01:00.002+08:00

I miss you Leying.. although we've known each other for 4 years, it's not until last week we met for the man utd vs barcelona match at chambers. somehow somewhere i felt comfort and peace with you beside me, the feeling is strong and i can feel the feeling that have been lost ages ago.. i wan to get to know you more and hopefully be able to get together with you in the future... take good care of urself and i'll always be here for you if you ever needed someone to talk to.

loves, kor.

the past, the present, the future

2010-11-19T15:22:00.002+08:00

Now i've realised that i have not gotten over Eileen but seeing her so happy and blessful with Elson, i can put my mind at ease. He will take good care of her. How i wish it's me that's in the picture. Havin such a nice birthday party and holiday. Take care alright girl. Colette, you're also another nice girl that is enjoying life now, you got to know new friends and i hope benny will take care of you. Seeing you smiling and laughin so happily makes me smile unknowninly too. I can put my mind at ease that you will not be happy already. I feel that i am an experience for you girls, after me, you girls seems to hit off nicely with your next guy. Claps! for you girls! i don't like it but in life, we can't expect too much. Just let it go and be happy. I'll change to be a better person, the next girl that's goin to come in to my life will be totally different as to how i treat you 2, it will be better. i hope i wont give another bad experience.

Eileen,Colette. Be happy alright, You girls got great guys beside you. Cherish them!

time to move on and get my life back.

2010-11-13T03:04:00.002+08:00

it's been months since we seperated. i can see your life now is getting better and better,thats very good. you've known a few guys. i hope they can take care of you and keep you safe,i can see you alrdy forgotten about danny, as well as me. i'm always waiting for your sms or reply but i always wait for nothing. it's time i put things down and move on, but can i do it? the feeling keeps comin back. i tried hard to push it away, i deleted your number, i deleted your facebook, but it still comes back. what did i do to deserve all this!! i wanna be with you , yet on the other hand, i also doesn't want.i'm confused and hurt. Seein you together with other guys, i can;t help but feel hurt and painful. you started drinkin and stuffs, this isn't the you i know in the beginning, i hope it's all ain't a disguise to begin with.i don't wanna irritate you with my senseless smses or calls, i'm tryin to stop. but i keep doin it still. i have now deleted your number and all your smses,i pray it won't come back again, please, let me live my life NOW! oh damned feelings, please go and leave me alone! i don't deserve all this!! i have wonderful friends around me that supports me.i don't need you at all!argh!it's just so stupid of me to still want you back even if it seems impossible.just, BE GONE!

i'm buying my bowling ball somewhere this week, taking up this sport to keep myself occupied..kinda hooked to bowlin now, i'll show you i can bowl.

btw, i got my 1st burberry wallet last week.nicenice=)

it's down to the wire....

2010-07-08T22:01:00.002+08:00

so weird, you've been treating me so coldly d past week, and suddenly you treat me so nice, i find it weird. And it's after he went over to your place. You 2 said that you guys did nothing. okay, i believe you, but he is your ex, it's very hard to believe. i felt as if you betrayed me, even thou we are not tgt but it's kinda wrong too ma.=(( i dont know why am i still clinging on to you. knowing that you go out without even tellin me and you get angry when i ask where are you.
today i ask you wad are we now, are we onli friends and cant be something else, im still waiting for your reply.i hope it wont b friends only, hais, i love you.

2010-06-10T20:00:00.002+08:00

im tired. im tired of you being so undecisive. im tired of you wanting to be with me yet wanting to be with him, im sorry, but i cant share u with anybody. how can love be shared with other ppl? koibito eh, it means lover or bf/gf, lifelong partners in japanese. it sucks to see tt. no wonder yst u said u wan to have sometime alone, and today u still can tell me, what u said yst isnt limted to yst only, i get it. hais, im here wasting my time, buying medicine for u when ur sick, go to ur place to take care of you, but still, u misses him. hais, go back to him yy, go back. go back and be happy, do anything u wan to make him want u back. me and you wont be tgt. cause u cant forget him, seeing d word koibito now makes me very very sad. i'll try to leave u alone alrdy, hai, i jus dont wanna believe tt u still love him and want him back. but ur showing me. hais, why cant i jus have a simple and happy relationship. why must it become so complicated. i dont deserve this right?
why cant i have a nice girlfriend whom loves me and not 1 who loves me and her ex. she wants both! wtf, why do i have to suffer this. i dont deserve this i dont deserve this!!!!!dam it! all i wan is for u to love me only!! is tt so difficult! HAIS koibitokoibito! why must u say all this to him, ur waiting for him to have reaction right!?! HAIS

=(

2010-02-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

i love you colette, i really do. sigh

How It Came To This?

2010-02-13T13:37:00.002+08:00

Why Why Why! must it happen? Why must eileen says the past of me to Col? Why must she say until i'm so bad that col has a changed opinion of me, now everything seems to be getting to a stop already. Why must this happen Again and again! If You Know This is gonna happen, why wanna let me know her in the 1st place?! WHY!? You Shouldn't have let me know her!IF Eileen can say me till i'm so bad, isin't she herself bad? And Doesn't everyone have flaws? why cant we be forgiven and forget the past and start anew. sigh!. Things changes overnight, it's so true, now it's stated we're good friends thats all. Does she really meant what she say? i feel superbly hurt, and its chinese new year in liek 1 days time? wTf! i dont have the mood for anything, shiitty SHIT! since last week, our relationship seems to be goin down and i DONT WANT IT TO GO DOWN! sigh, why must failure come find me again , can't it even let me succeed after so long?

am i not good enough for any girl? am i the worse guy a girl can have? WHY!
what am i supposed to do now, i don't wanna give up, but everything seems to be making me give up. argh! stupid life, stupid NS, stupid everything. fuck!

love hurts and it hurts super badly each time it falls! grr!

guess im not the right guys for you, im neither skillful nor clever. im never a good guy! fuck this life shaun fuck it!

R A N D O M

2009-04-01T18:03:00.005+08:00

Emptyness...

heyhey! Being playing Flight Sim this few weeks, tryin to prepare myself for being a pilot. But my Boeing 744 Singapore Airlines Megatop always overshot the runway. (that's something i have to worry ) BUT! my bombardiar leafjet can land smoothly at Changi International Airport Perfectly. (ClapsS!!)

Currently saving money for a new com to suit my ADD-ON scenery for Singapore with EXPOS, SUNTEC, ESPLANADE etc. . .

And also saving for another trip to korea or maybe europe before my enlistment. Life's GOOD!

I Don't wanna have a girlfriend now because i don't wanna be tied down already. Past relationships have taught me alot, but i dont wish to get into another relationship as i know it will hurt later on. yea shelly, hahas, let's be friends now and yea! YOU BETTER LOVE DOGS!..

aww, creamy and floffy is so cute!

Happy valentine all....

2009-02-14T05:00:00.002+08:00

hmm, im bored! crappy days.. i'm waiting for my enlistment, and the letter not yet come! most prob i'll go in commando. that's what you wish the last time and you got it. Hope it'll make me a STRONGER guy, wahahahs, hmm okay, met up with shuk and sui just now for some lepak lepak. Went to flyer to eat and wanted to get a free ride up the flyer, but sui's friend was not working, aww sad! then went to Sheeeesha at arab street and guess what, we saw our classmates! it's so so small world, long time since i saw neny, she's hot! hahas! Then after that went to devil's bend, then go to yishun dam. i'm amazed by the cars! i wan an EVOLUTION 8!!! dam!

Btw, i'm going to take my bike licence somewhere next week or the week after next! here i come bikey!!

anyway good morning guys!

hurtx

2009-01-20T01:11:00.001+08:00

I've Thought i can forget you, but now i know...... i still can't..

it hurts..

Just Wanna Be With You

2008-11-09T13:16:00.002+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . . I can see you are getting along with your life well. that's good to see. I don't know if you and him already together and don't wanna tell us, but i hope you will think it clearly. You've changed, i don't know if i've changed, i can't say myself, you have to see it yourself.

No matter what happens, if you need a shoulder or a lending ear to talk to, you can come and find me, i'm fine with it, after all, you may change, but deep inside, you don't change, i still know what you likes and what you don't. And nice flowers he sent you. Better then my for some reasons. I know i can't ask anything now, But seeing you happy, i'm should be happy too.

Anyway, happy 18th birthday on 5nov....

I'm waiting for another chance, be it now or in he future, i know for once, i'm with you.... i love you..

Memories doesn't fade

2008-10-13T04:00:00.002+08:00

I guess, i'm not ready to blog and i'm still tryin to accept the fact that you are gone from me, from my life, i have to move on no matter how hard it is. all the things we had gone through together. the thick and thin of matters. have you forgetten all about it? how i rush down to get you slippers althought i've just slept for 3hours. haiis, it hurts to know that we have end. 1 year passes by so fast. i cherished you, but i guess our fate wasn't meant to be.

Memories last forever, thats all i can say....

it hurts.....

The World of Illusions

2008-09-29T21:34:00.010+08:00

Hmm, had fun during the last 2 days, so i'll split it up.. 27/09/08 Went to sentosa with dear, ray, elson, jiajun. We met charmine there as charmine was with her friends. was kinda a happy trip there. we reached vivo city and went to see the SAFARI. saw many dogs, so cute lar !! then went to take the sentosa express into sentosa, me and dear no need pay cause got the islander's card. after that went to sit the sentosa luge, we bought the buy 2 get 1 free ticket. so we can sit 3 times. after that we went to sit the sky ride up and take the luge down. was fun as everybody was runnin like they were F1, except no licence that kind of F1. then after the luge ride, we went to find charmine. Charmine also very funny, mix up the place then we cant find her. HOT! then we walkwalk and we found her, the sand was so SOSO hot and we keep runnin around. changed and went into the water, was so salty went we accidently drank some of it. WOW free salt, eeks! then we went to play luge again, this time also no licence. after that went to vivo to eat. walkwalkwalk and we found MUSSELICIOUS restaurant. not very expensive, but very CHEAP! about 20 per person. the food was, okok nia-.-" then after that walk walk around. and go HOME! took the MRT home , it's LONG T_T here are the pics... enjoy!! =) 28/09/08 Went to Watch f1 with dear and gang. met at 5pm at city hall mrt, already SO many people, then we slowly walk to marina center where we find see if got space to watch the match. many people and not much spaces so we went to a restaurant to eat and watch, the restaurant name is PARISS international seafood buffet restaurant. it's $45BUCKS per person. 7 of us went and it's like WOW so expensive, but it's worth it, great food and nice veiw of the F1. this is my 2nd time i go to the restaurant. the food is nice, many choices and varieties to choose. When the match start everybody was like so kan jiong all rush to the window. then a few of us went to the roof top to watch, it's SO fun lar, the noise is So loud and the atmosphere is amazing. next year, we all plan to buy tickets and go and watch it.! run around the rooftop to find nice places to watch, and i managed to find some, took some video of the cars zooming pass us and it's so loud!

thats all.. for now .=)

happy anniversary..

2008-09-20T14:04:00.002+08:00

today is our 1year and 2 months anniversary. But dear is in Malaysia-.- and she has forgotten about it, but i'm okay with it. =) eeler they all plan to go out today, but i'm already meeting my cousin so i cant go, they are goin to KATONG shopping center. wa lao, so far lar that 1, then son also dont know wanna go anot, lol he complain far then he alone go lol! all dont go lar, next time then go hahas!

And, Dear, i wish that, if he ask about our relationship, you wont tell him anything that is related to us only, i dont wan him to know so much about our relationship. can? it's our relationship, he no need to ask that much about it. he wanna find the weakness in me. lol..

My 1st CAR! (RENT) =X

2008-09-14T04:05:00.006+08:00

hmm, rented a car 2days ago, KIA PICANTO, no choice cause too late then rent, no other choices, so just rent that car to try it out, went rounding with buddies then go home sleep, woke up at 7am to fetch eileen to school, was kinda tired but looking at her i feel happy le. Then after drivin her to school, i go home and sleep, lucky!!. Cause when i leaving house in the morning, the sky is super dark, seems like goin to have a thunderstorm, but luckly, it didn't rain and the sky even turn bright =.=" Then whent i reach home, it started to rain heavily, SUPER MAN! tried to slept when i came home, but can't sleep-.-" so do nothing around and waited for son and eileen to come to panjang then i go fetch them to eileen's house. Waited for ray to wake up, he go try to car, lol starting was like so unstable, then slowly it became normal. Then went he tried to go up the carpark, the car stalled-.-" and it rolled backwards, everybody was like SUPER scare. hahas! then i go drive his dad's car out and we drive to return the picanto. Was like racing during the trip there, hahas, those 2 idiots ray and elson, behind us keep jumping around in other car, lol

After returning the car, we send elson home and we went home to eat dinner. =)

Here's a picture of my 1st CAR( jialat model) -.-!!

Just now went to meet Jiajun and Eeler to go and find Son to celebrate his belated birthday lol. While goin there, at bukit batok, ray was driving at 90km/hr, and it was a 70km/hr road, then we ran pass a speed camera. it flashed at us, but i don't know if it's flashing at us or the car beside us, cause there is another car running as well. so we were worried. hahas, Then reached Son's cousin house, had a plan with his cousin but his cousin was not at home, so we asked his brother to open the door and we have a cake, so we surprize him! He was not wearing any shirt at that time and he was like so shy hahas! Then after that we went to bedok to eat. Then just now drive the car back as ray was kinda tired, was not driving fast, just normal speed, kinda ZAI liao! hahas okay time to sleep...

here care some pictures.

tata! =)

Pride

2008-09-12T14:43:00.001+08:00

i lay down my pride.

Boring ACCOUNTING CLASS!

2008-09-09T21:40:00.002+08:00

Today is the start of my accounting class in MDIS again. Remoduled* but the class is so boring lar. The lecturer is even worse, talk like he is dying like that, very boring. Class alot Singaporeans then all like ah beng ah lian like that, so sian.

Went out of house at 12.45pm, then was playing PSP, reach school just nice 1.55pm, already kinda alot ppl in class. so went in and it feels WEIRD, REALLY WEIRD, like i am in another world, everybody seems so strange to me, hahas maybe because it's a new class, but i doubt i will ever get to know them, cause i'm only goin for 1 lesson per week. After class went to meet Eileen at Bukit Panjang Plaza, just to buy KFC and go home eat-.-" Went for dinner with her family just now, but i not hungry, so didn't eat. then after that, ray and his friends goin driving around, so i follow them, so they can fetch me home only, cheers*! hahas,

Wanna rent a car, but most of it is all min. 2 years experience then they will rent to you, ANYBODY, that view my blog, can help me look out for renting cars? PLEASE! =)

A Day Where There Is No Sunlight..

2008-09-08T23:43:00.002+08:00

okay, just a random post. long time since i post anyway. hahas, just came back from desaru yesterday with eileen and her family. Was kinda bored there but it's still fun. see the adults play mahjong and eating seafood. At night, the wind was absolutely fantasic, was like blowing me off, it's FUN! On the way home, we went to ostrich farm, fruit farm and temple. i and ray was like sitting in our dream car, HONDA CIVIC V-TEC 1.8 LIT sport! =) lol, but i feel the turbo was not very good. not much feel at all. hahas, the person bought for 80+k i think and he says he wanna change car soon. How i wish he can sell me his car. . . then came back to Singapore, TUAS keep JAM JAM JAM, then got alot cars keep cutting into our lane, was very pissed. Cause got this FAT LADY, dont know how to drive car, keep letting other ppl cut in to the lane, then the lane not moving -.-"!! Then dad also came back from Genting with my sister and my aunties, those girls, shopping and bought alot of things, whole bag FULL,that was SO AH SOH LAR! then buy 2watch and a shirt for me only, KIAM SIAP!

Suddenly, today i felt i miss the old times, when eileen was working at sha villa, i feel those times were the best time of all. Now it doesn' seems very right. Last time when she working, i would wait for her outside, come fetch her in the morning then go have breakfast together, i miss those times, she seems very lovely at that time. I MISS IT!

And it' so fast, goin to 1year 2months already. it's tough for us during this time, but we somehow managed to pass through it. Now she schooling, i working + schooling, not much time to be as lovely as last time le, it's sad but everything will pass someday right, it's all in the memory already, cherish what we have now and enjoy our time together, possible my dear?

Eileen wanna get the IPHONE, it's expensive, i wanna buy for her, but i don't have the capital to but it now, i see what i can do. . .
Hope i'm able to get it for your 18th birthday, for now, use your SAMSUNG 1st hor, cheers.

ciaoz, going to school tomorrow.

Once A Day Passed

2008-05-27T22:37:00.003+08:00

hi im back! hmm, lets get straight to the point ba, sat was dear's didi 1st month anniversay, i mean baby o, then her cousins come down from malaysia, so i went to visit them and the baby, was kinda hot cause many ppl. after everything i went home.

next day dear they all go out, car not enough place so i cannot go, so stay at home whole afternoon until evenin go swimmin with brothers. then at night go meet dear they all for go out play, her brother drive. kinda shock lar but anyway still okay. then monday they go chinatown, i dont feel like goin so nv go los, then she say i go no car dont want to go, -.- say until liek that, it hurts los. . . .

today, they go sentosa, nv tell me, i packed everything then bring go driving, after drivin called her, but she say she at sentosa, then say last min go de, then i was like, you all go sentosa also never let me know that you are goin, how do i feel? i feel very upset about it los. it's like you all go but dont wan me along can, jus tell me where you goin, i mornin wake up still sms you, but no reply. haiis..

HI!!!

2008-02-19T03:55:00.003+08:00

hmm, long time since i post, was too lazy to post actually. don't really know what happen to dear now, suddenly she is like a changed person. so weird, haiis, i don't wish to say much, no mood, just no mood. since you want me not to ask so many things, i'll try to stop it. since this is the way you want.. you want..

BAD BAD BAD DAY!

2008-01-25T00:19:00.000+08:00

today is a damn bad day, had a very very very bad cry today. cause . . . suddenly i have a feeling i'm going to lose dear already

yst is O lvl results, dear's brother got 28 for his o level then he is sad lar. then came home his father keep like scolding him, then suddenly scold everybody like that, then dear came in to the room and cry, the situation not very nice lar. then dear cry finish liao, we go down eat mac, then came home dear complain tired, then head pain, then say alot of those WANT TO DIE THINGS! it seems so real lar, make me damn sad lar, it's like, i'm going to lose her liao los. then her brother situation i also in it los, it's been 2 years. i still can rmb, i am even worse los, ITE ALSO CANNOT GO ARH! damn it! i was at the lowest of my life lar!

dear, i hope i won't ever lose you, 80k right, no problem, i sure will make enough to MARRY YOU! =) after NS arh ! CHIONG ARH! give u good life i promise! and dont ever say those kind of lousy words again please. it hurts

i love you dear.

STRESS!

2008-01-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

hmm, at home now, goin fetch dear soon liao, just now came back then heard ah gong was like not feeling well. was kinda worried for him, then my ah ma came up with my auntie only. then monday exams liao. friday last day of schoo ler, was kinda sad thatschool is goin to end, but still happy that it ended-.-" STRESS of exams, if i fail how how how .T_T

dear was angry yst then suddenly a not so nice question pop out again. don't wanna hear it anymore can? how can we be stable if all this things keep happenin dear. 2 more months ++ only then can go holiday ler, jia you ba! i wanna go holiday with you de! with kyle they all then drink chrivas until they DIE! DIE DIE! hahahs!

no barcardi for you anymore! RAWR!

okay ciao, i coming liao , BB LOVES

Happy 6th month

2008-01-20T23:47:00.000+08:00

Happy 6th month!

i'm happy that we have come this far, but the pic on ur blogs say alot of things ler. from strangers to friends, from friends to more then friends, then practically back to strangers, it all happens so fast. <--- alot meaning ler!

hope it doesnt refer to anything, or else i GG! chery QQ!

alright, project time, MUGGING! ADIOS

love youdear

erm..

2008-01-19T02:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY! erm, that was yesterday, so BELATED! =D
but she is angry with me, dont know why. bought her tiramisu cake with wine in it she also angry, sad!

then dear says she is disappointed in me =(

maybe i guess so, cause i keep making empty promises. guess im too tired ler ba, but i dont wanna disappoint her so i say yes los, haiis Sorry dear. it won't happen ler. 2 more weeks and i am sure i can pei u liao. i wont make empty promises again.

got something for dear this sunday, but she wan STEAK! HOW TO DO!!-.-"

dont wanna say much, later tag hang again.

i wont disappoint you.

1 more day to go

freezing cold night

2008-01-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

it's kinda FREEZING now alright! lazy to type thos events that happened the past few days, but overall, i guess i'm happy with everything =o

hmm, alright, gonna sleep soon, later still have to go fetch dear -.-"

so . . . .
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Nights!

12 more days

2007-12-27T02:28:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAS
I'm Blogging in behalf of SHAUN TAN YUAN QING!
Going to malaysia in a few hours time, he shall miss me alot alot. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS
LAME.

Merry Xmas!

2007-12-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone !!

24/12/07

When to her house in the morning, sent her home and then cabbed home to my house to sleep! was supposed to go down to tim yee's dear house for bbq at 3pm but dear overslept. dear said she dont wan sleep, in the end also fall asleep =.=! called her at 2+ never pick up, call her at 4 then she pick up, aiyo! met dear at 6pm at Lot 1 to buy the exchange presents. dear bought individual presents for her friends as well. buy for everybody except me! i never received any presents =( after buyin the presents, took the mrt down to marsiling for the bbq. was not in a good mood cause dear never buy for me.=( but i can't blame her also, i mean, i can't force her to buy mahz, i love her so it's okay =) went to the bbq, not much ppl also, timyee they all were starting fire, so i went to help them,the after that,i started feeling lazy. so i go sit down liao hahas!

WA FUCK, MY TAG LINK BROKEN! all i write missing -.-

aiya, later then write lar, du lan!

back from malaysia.

2007-12-19T04:23:00.000+08:00

got back from malaysia jus now, currently bloggin at dear place. can't sleep. that stupid zhu sleeping beside me now. yawn..

Thursday
took the bus to genting, the bus was supposed to come at 9.30pm, then my dad told us was 8.30pm, so everybody was like there already at 8.30pm. then we waited like stupid like that for the bus, so dumb lar! then bus came at 9.30pm, left for tuas checkpoint at 10pm. reached genting at around 3.10am! that's so fast lar! oh yaya and on the way, say shooting stars, that night got meteor shower, saw many shooting stars, was like so nice lar. woo!!

Friday
reached genting, then all cousins go down to starbucks to drink and play till 5.35am. they all went up to sleep except me go jalan jalan, cant sleep! then in the mornin wanted to go out to theme park de, then heavy rain-.-" very nice weather. stupid! dad won 3k and he gave everybody 100bucks, so generous of him,kns!

Saturday
woke up and went for breakfast. after that getting ready to go down to sunway lagoon ler, got van come pick us up. i was like sitting in front lar-.-" so cramp! reached sunway at around 2+ JAM WAS MISERABLE! checked into hotel, then go shopping ! saw dear wanted that bag, but find it was too auntie like- .- so didnt buy. walked around and saw that the things were so expensive-.-"

Sunday
as usual, WENT WINDOW SHOPPING WITH COUSINS! saw my friend there though, hahas not a bad idea to see a friend there o

Monday
wake up breakfast. then all take a public bus to KL! the metro bus was like outside it looked . . .. . inside not bad wor, i slept the whole journey so it dont bother me much hahas! reached chinatown, then go to KLCC then back to sunway.

Tuesday
bought the bus at 3pm, reached singapore at 7pm. fast hor hahahs now stayin up to blog
cousin leave for cananda in 1hour time. i MISS HER ALOT! i really can't bear to see her go. can she not leave!!! =(
not sure if im goin to the airport, haiis!

In genting ..

2007-12-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

currently in genting now, nothing to do, so boring, wanted to go outdoor themepark but it RAINED! crappy!!!!!!!!! grrr!

hmm yesterday reacher genting at around 3am. the bus was so fast -.- we left singapore at 10.30pm , HOW FAST WAS THAT! checked in and we cousins go downstairs starbucks to drink and gamble. hahas 5+ and all of them went back to sleep, i alone go wandering in genting till 8am. can't get to sleep thats why.

today did nothing, went to eat KFC in the mornin, it is getting worse and worse now -.-" i can't believe it...

dad just hit jackpot in casino and won 3K. tonight going to have a nice treat by him already, WOO!!

gtg byebye! meeting all the adults at 6.30pm for dinner. HERE COMES MY CHILLI CRAB!!

baby dear, do be careful please, don't fall again, hurting ur back is serious alright, i worry about you dumb dumb. i not around only, so many things happen, aiyo!!! now u know u need me ler right. ^^ hahas

loves ya!

going to malaysia

2007-12-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

short post before i go malaysia, will update when i can during the trip =D

hmm, now it's 5.30pm, my bus is leaving at 8.30pm at bukit panjang plaza for genting. =D then saturday i'll be goin down to Sunway lagoon ^ ^

going to dear house now, i miss her, feeling sad that i can't see her till wednesday, =( huggies baby, time will pass very fast de, smiles =D

okay lar, go liao, no time blog more, RUSHIN TO baby's house, i WANNA SEE HER! DIOS!

2007-12-10T16:32:00.000+08:00

alone now, so boring so i thought i should blog ba. currently finding some old techno songs, it's so nice lar. not those heavy blasting kind, is those got meaning and those that will make you wanna dance type.

some music like :

1) Stay With Me ( Dj Heyboy Remix )
2) Together Again ( Dj Hyper vs Dj Trax )
3) Sex is not the end ( Dj playboi feat dj heyboy )
4) This is our night ( d - tunes )
5) Stay with me ( dj ironik )
6) Eternal of ice bells meteorite ( dj mclairs )

yesterday went out with cousins for dinner. Ate at billy bombers, not quite expensive though =D then after that, my buddy called, he and his gf broke up on saturday. he was crying on the phone, i was like WOW, 1st time since i known him for 12years, he cried and i was like OMG, what should i do, cause he is those kind which is very strong in front of everybody, and in our group he can only come and find me cause only me and him have got into relationships. aye, i dont really know how to console guys but nevertheless, he is my buddy, have to somehow show that i know =X

he asked me to accompany him to buy somethings so that he can patch back with the girl, and he bought a tasmania devil. so off he went to find his girl. i was left alone =.= " so i go walkwalk myself los then go home.

Satursay
stayed at home for the whole day. so boring! then somemore dear working midnight shift, then i mornin go fetch her home los, while waiting for her, security come talk to me, he keep call me cute boyfriend cute boyfriend, i was like so =.= "
then waited for dear to end work, we go eat breakfast then i send her home. then cabbed home myself and SLEEP! slept for 5hours nia then cousins call me out-.-" shackshackshack.

going to malaysia in 4days time liao, going to leave dear alone for 5days, but she going to leave me for 6days arh! go penang never bring me go, biased! will wait for her =D

aiight nothing to say ler

Signing off at 5pm!

Where is the love

2007-12-08T19:07:00.000+08:00

home all day, was supposed to meet her to go bugis and for dinner, but last minute cancel, she lazy. then now i am all alone at home. haiis, i wanna see her, i wanna meet her, but she dont want. tomorrow can't meet, thought today can meet up, but no chance. next week going malaysia already, 6days can't see her, now i wanna cherish the chance to be able to see her more also cannot. T_T

now dont know what to do at home, i've been walkin up and down whole day already =.= "

last few days nothing much happen also ba.. except that it rains almost every minute
-.-" shiok but very annoying also, need carry umbrella everywhere. yst was worse, heavy rain pouring down when i was going to fetch her from work, when i reach there, the rain stopped, my whole body is wet-.-" my whole time together with her, no heavy rain, when i'm alone, the heavy rain chase me again, WTH! fated to get wet! when will my sick get okay sia! kns!

now drinkin baron's strong brew beer, yucky beer, so not nice -.-"
drink until want to vomit

aaiiight! signing off 7.20pm

pondering; daydreaming.

2007-11-20T00:10:00.000+08:00

today is our 4th month together, are you happy dear? just wanna let you know that i love you deeply still. ;D

school starts today, and again i was late-.-" reached at 11am, and the teacher was like, what the hell, you just reach? go sit down then he give me that look. i was like eh, yeah, so? crap! whole lesson i was almost daydreaming, dont know why, then i heard many of my classmates keep saying he looks like a sissy, that reminds me of MR Tham, my shatec tourism teacher, he is . . . absolutely WOOT! hahas! after school went to dear's house, she is sick so bought porridge for her to eat. after that, long story, don't wish to say it anymore. just let it pass. then her parents ask me to follow them go eat dinner, but i can't. i needa go down to pasir ris to book the stupid chalet. sorry uncle/auntie. ;(

when to pasir ris in my friend's uncle pickup. was like frezzing cause we were sitting behind -.- " i was pronounced STIFF when i reached there. when to book to chalet, then came home, another freezing ride home. then went to plaza to eat then go home.

reached home got a big scolding from mum and dad. cries** now blogging los, how i wish i can say i love you now dear. haiis.

Happy 4th Month!

am i stupid?

wordless.

2007-11-09T02:00:00.000+08:00

lets say a happy belated to my baby.. 5/11/2007.

today:

very pek cek..i don't know what i did, was it my attitude? it all started because you started it 1st. i was trying my best to cope by coming down to bring you KFC and fetch you home. what you did when i was there? you stayed at the back office as though i'm not around, do you bother to come out and talk to me? no you didn't

goin home time, waited for the bus, when the bus came, you left me alone at orchard and when home urself? what was that?

cabbed down to her house to wait for her. waited about 1hr before she arrive, but she was in the bus towards yew tee, so i rushed to yew tee just to see you not there. saw a figure like you walkin, but with somebody beside.. dont wanna make assumptions.

rushed back to her hse and smsed her sis, she say she at home. okay fine, go down saw her mum-.- was runnin to hide, paiseh to see her mum later thought what happen again, then i think her mum saw me hiding. auntie, dont have the wrong meaning ba.

running out of breath, i don't even know WHAT happened!

why must all this keep happening, i don't wan a repeat of history again!

Beg for forgivness.

2007-11-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

it's a very bad day today.. didnt go to school in the mornin, friends was dulan with me, i agree with them, i don't know why all this will happen, i'm so sorry guys, i'm trying to change already, i promise i will get it done. i will come to school everyday no matter what..

i don't want this scene to repeat again either in our relationship or the past relationship. i don't want to be the OLD SHAUN again!!! it sucks! i won't allow that to happen to me in this relationship anymore!

dear.. i can't believe i will do that to you, i'm so very sorry. All this is my fault, i shouldn't push you too hard until you hurt your wrist. it's my fault, it was foolish of me to do that to you. i beg for your forgivness although i know it's very difficult. i hope you will accept my apology. i can't afford to lose you so soon, it's difficult. i don't wanna say anymore, it hurts. baby, i promise you all this won't happen again, i'm not that stupid to do all this to hurt our relationship again.

baby, forgive me.

baby, forgive me.

baby, forgive me.

baby, forgive me.

i can't sleep !

2007-10-14T03:57:00.000+08:00

now it's 4am, can't sleep even though i force myself to. i'm thinking why are all the girls like that, are they all like that to their boyfriends?

ask them go for movies, they say they don't like movies.
friends ask them go, they say OKAY.

ask them take photos for remembrance, they say don't want.
friends ask them take, they say OKAY.

why are their boyfriends like strangers to them?

i really don't know, it feels weird. very weird..

i can't sleep, do you really love me..

A time to ponder. . ..

2007-10-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

got back from chalet on wednesday, it's dear and her friends chalet. i followed and everything was alright. but i jus dont like that we have disagreement every evening. i don't know why will it happen but it's not a good thing to hear and see. dont wish to say more about it. but i can say i enjoy it with her.

yst when to dear house to stay over. cause i was watchin a ghost show then dare not go home -.-"
then this mornin dear supposed to go to WORK! but i woke her up, she go sleep again. pull her and she goes down again, guess she is really tired. it's all my fault. brought her back home too late and don't wanna leave. i'm sorry dear, really terrible sorry. hope your parents dont have a bad impression about me. sorry!

sleepin now ba dear, iloveyoutruely!

may our love last forever.

Once Upon A Time . . . ..

2007-10-04T02:15:00.000+08:00

fairytale developed, and the title is Me And You. Here it goes;

Shaun met Eileen at Shatec banquet. At 1st, she thought he was not a very good guy as he likes to come to school late and disturb his friends. But Shaun did not give up, during her last days at banquet, he get his courage up and asked for her number. She gave and he was delighted. Shaun waited and waited till one day, he smsed her and they started talking. They went to the ZOO and Shaun was looking at the monkey( nothin wrong with looking okay!) , Eileen was laughin around, dont really know why she is laughin, maybe she sees herself inside with the monkeys;D

After the trip to zoo, shaun send her home and they have a long chat downstairs her house, nice chat i should say. Got to know her more and more by the day passes and soon they become a couple. But sad to say, Eileen was toying with his feelings for the 1st few weeks and shaun become very depressed. He was about to give up and suddenly Eileen holded him back. So he stayed and no matter what happens later on, he didn't even give up and he continue to wait for Eileen to really feel his love for her is real!

Many things happen later on, but he still didn't give up. Not even once and one day, Eileen finally feel the LOVE! And now they are happily ever after. FULLSTOP!

Dear, This is what i want to say to you;

After all that happen, it's tiring for me at 1st, but i don't mind doin all this just for you, i want us to be loving and love each other even more each day. i hope to one day be the Groom of Shaun & Eileen. ;D Also, i wanna say, i love you and i want our love to be like the SUN and MOON, never ending, always blossoming and smiling. Dear iloveyou.

Shaun(Hippo) & Eileen(Panda)
loves

lonely day..

2007-09-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

lonely, lonely, lonely.. so bored, doin nothing now, dear now at chalet, didn't go because of some problems. haiis, i miss her, but what can i do to see her now, its saddening los, but no choice, i only can look at the time and ask it to pass faster, she don't wanna sms cause her sms is over already.

SO BORING ARH!!!!!! tomorrow school liao, sienx, i MISS you lar!

Happy 2nd Anniversary!

2007-09-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

hmm, HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY stupid panda! hope all our hardship that we suffered will finally come to an end and we will realise how much we needed each other alright ! :D

Today, went to meet cousins at Plaza Sing, then went to eat sakae Sushi, bomb my pocket nia! then after that went to play some games, ENFO SUCK MAN!!!!!! go to HELL!
after playing , all like zombie liao so go home and sleep! zZzZz yawn!! ahh choo!

Dear is sick o, always say ppl sick, now she sick, good time to shoot her back, stupid panda! orbi lar sick sick sick!

better take care hor, i wanna take care of you, but not this time hahas, next time ba, you will see the real me, then you will KNOW how much you mean to me! ;P

So for now,GET WELL! and your temperature please don't go down too much, later become cold blooded ! =.="

tml school liao, hope i won't late again wee o wee! hahas

and and and . . . . Shatec send me a letter stating the graduation ceremony at Shangri-La hotel on 27october. Should i go? but i will see her again o, that's abit embarassing . . . . . >.<

BYEBYE!

What a . . . . . ;(

2007-09-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

Thursday - went to school, yawn the whole time, boring ! then evenin dear tell me her parents and aunties at fajar -.- and want to see me AIYOOOOOOOO!! it was like so PAISEH lar! aiyoh!!!! T_T then i go bathe, get ready to go meet them, was like tryin to act more standard lar! then was liek so funnny hahas! then dear come find me and drag me to her auntie there, i was like , o - m - g HELP!!! red red red ! hahahas, then chatted with her auntie. still very paiseh but slowly it become normal hahas, i jus love my dear! ;D then i go home SLEEP!

Friday - went to school as usual, then dear can forget me and go out with friends! sad but nvm, i forgive her ;d then after that long story liao, dont wanna say. but ,dear i wanna tell you, i hope after all this, our love will be even stronger and stable, i don't wanna lose you after all. i hope all this won't happy again alright. i love you..

today - Went out to buy slippers and bag, but only bought slippers, and came home and get a great scolding. hahas! my hp bill was $161, LMAO! screwed shaun! hahas! now goin for mahjong session, GOOD LUCK TO SHAUN PLEASE !

2007-09-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

Long time since i did Blog!, anyway no1 sees this blog also, so i guess i'll start to write back again ba. so far, 1 year has passed since my last girlfriend and now i have one, but i don't know if i can last with her. it's like, haiis, i really dont know! i wanna be with her, but i scare i am not her type of guy. i still feel inferior to all her other ex. althought i shouldn't be feeling this way, but i .. i.. i jus feel this way. I am not handsome, i have no money, i need you every now and then, will you feel tired of me? i hope it is a NO.

i believe we will last long. i'm just afraid whenever we have quarrels, you will give up. i'm afraid, so so afraid. {-.-}"
But no matter what, i still love her larrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! stupid panda!

Okay, to other things alr,

Now Studying In MDIS, My new friends are so so so FUNNY! hahas!! PSP gang hahas! but all older then me-.- all go NS alr! i'm the onli 1 left. the girls are also wee woo wee! hahas 1 become my LAO JIEJIE liao hehe! we plannin chalet as well, but all ai mai ai mai 1.

Family Time,

Jie is so stress about her UNI life and wants to opt out of it, as her didi, i see her like tt i also sad lar... jie, dont give up kkay, jiayou! didi is always here for YOU!

2007-07-29T02:52:00.001+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Haiis, Why Why Why, I Really Dont Know, Does She Realli Treat Me Like Her Boy? i Really Dont Know, It Hurts ! She Don't Tell Me Her Problems When I Ask And Keeps Finding Excuse to run away fromit.

i really love her. i realli do, but somehow, i jus feel that something is wrong, is she the right girl for me?

i hope she is, ppl say 2 scorpios cant be together, problems will keep arising. is it true?

i wanna have a new start dating back from july 06, dont give me another set back so soon LAO TIAN. i cant take the stress or anything any more, it HURTSSSSS

;(

2006-12-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Back From Malaysia, Bought many things wor, saw many things also !

haha, Malaysian girls just ROX !, but too bad, i'm a singaporean, bOo!

KLCC (teddy tales) <--- My Perfect Girl I Found.

Sungei Wang(LEMON) <--- MY Type Of Girls, Sweet.

Times Square(SASA) <--- Such A Loving Girl, CUte~

ALL MALAYSIAN ! ARGH !

I Need Girls Girls Girls Girls !!! hehe.

And Now I'm Sick ! Boo HOO!

2006-11-24T14:00:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Gosh!, Got Stomach upset the WHOLE of today! can't go to work, and i OWE them 5days of make- up alr. i'm so doomed T_T and i still gonna need to take 4days of leave to go to Malaysia with my family=.=

STPID TAG BROKEN! SUCK!!!

Will my Resistance come to nthing?

2006-11-16T01:06:00.000+08:00

Waiting , Waiting , Waiting.

i'm waiting for you!

You told me you think we were not suitable together. Maybe it's true, but i don't wanna give up just yet, anything is possible i believe.

alight, enough bout that, now i can't find any HOTELS. All hotels are like rejecting all our application, stupid hotels!-.- my attachment is arriving ^^

My *darling* for 6years had a Boyfriend, and i just know it, kept me in the dark all this months yeah, so disappointed!

2006-10-24T05:01:00.000+08:00

when to work as usual. FINALLY I AM 18! when to Shin 8 bar with friends. Make me drunk, damn zzz. i was almost drunk. but still awake, kinda sad ya. saw the girl i love almost flirting with other guy. i was so damn pissed but i cant do anything, she is not my yet.

she gave me 2 birthday kiss+ a hug hehex.

but i wanted a longer hug. i love her so much T_T

Love someone is so hard. but this is LIFE. bear with it shaun!

I'm gone for now, adios SLEEP!FReAKIN giddy!

Long time no see.

2006-10-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .
I have waited long enough.

Wa, write everything all gone now -.-"

nvm rewrite.

In Memory of Steve Irwin<--- I LOVE HIM!, WHAT A LOST! its about 1 month since the death of steve. i'm devastated. its like i've lost a person close to me. hope he is happy in the nether world. miss ya mike!. I'm an animal lover as well, may all animals share the pain of losing a great man capable of communicatin with animals. love you mike! 1965 - 2006. I'm so busy now. ATTACHMENT at OCBC Executive Club at Chilia Street, 33th floor. I love my seniors until making me so called fall in love with 1 of them -.-" Her name is Limin. but she have BF liao >..<

This is Limin ba, MISS HER!

ME and CREAMY! i Love her LOTS!

thats all. ^^

2006-09-06T22:39:00.001+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Steve Irwin has died. A shocking news to me tt is. i don't really know why and how come will i have this feeling that hurts so much even though we are far apart. i just feel very sad that the world has lost someone that is able to communicate with animals. Steve irwin is a communicator for the animals and humans, but now, everything seems very plain. I am truely truely sad that he has gone like tt. If he is person that is send by GOD, den has his mission finished? If not, why take him back so early?

Miserable me -.-" sad sad sad, i do love animals tts why im sad.

2006-09-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

Good Day

2006-08-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

i guess there is some busybody comin into this blog and talk craps about my life? when they dont even know what is happenin -.-" and this small kid came in and talk as though she knows every single thing. if you know every thing you wont come and make such comment on ppl already jor. take a look at urself before saying others, at least mistakes i made , i corrected it and now im havin a wonderful life. miserable ppl like you will stay on and say things about ppl making yourself look as though you are GOD. come on, get a life sista !

ur pathetic, and having those writing , who cant see ya not a young kid? imagine goin to the outside world with hand writing like this ( Bloodyy) what english is this?

ur nick advice? thats a disgrace to this word. sohai...

mistakes i did in the past at least i know how to correct it and its being a long time ago already jor, but you still have to say it again and again and again, haha life's too boring for you ya? get a life.

and my blog girly? hmmx, i dont find it girly? i dont even fucking care about it, so why should you?

2006-08-13T00:30:00.000+08:00

me and shufen, she is the 1 i miss =p

me and my jiejie( isnt she pretty ! )

Waiting And Waiting . . .

hais fenfen, while u are enjoying outside , im slacking at home -.- i dont know but i know i wanna be by ur side always T_T but i dont think it is possible for us, im just dreaming of the impossible, and another thing is i haven put down yuting. i dare not start another relationship. im afraid of setbacks already..

but somehow somewhere, i still misses u. haix.

fenfen, hope u take care of urself ba. i'll always be here for you without letting you know.

life jus goes on like water flowing for me now, as days passes, i also passes. i jus cant get the meanin of life back argh! the fireworks are nice jjor =)))

cool! ! ! !

2006-07-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

Yst was workin at Pines Country Club, got function. is a CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh Convent)
All GIRLS! and some are so pretty. kinda regretting why i did not take her number !! hais!! she was the only girl i had my eyes on the WHOLE evenin, even wen rui says so hor=X i T_T.. wei she mo i nv go ask for her number, even the manager say le, why nv go take her number!! if i have a chance now, i sure go take, but how T_T.

will i see you again? >.<
lol. ;X

hais, girl, let me find u ! =X

L.I.F.E!

2006-07-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . . im still waiting for that day to come!.

hmmx, yst went to celebrate ma fren's birthday at sentosa! keke saw many chio bu arh! but too bad, dare not go take number. haa, after sentosa, when to paradiz center to play lan. woo! Anti-Mage Rox!, own every1 muahahha!..

was home at 3.45am +.+"

today..

mornin cannot wake up to go to my auntie's restaurant, so when at 12.10pm.. took a cab and rush down. tiring! den im the only waiter there -_- what is this man!

hate it hate it hate it! F5!

now im home ^^
gonna sleep soon, tml 8.30am class =.=!

Im Waiting for that day to come! i miss you. do you know that? xiang ni.

VvoOmm!

2006-07-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Celebrated friend birthday at east coast. so fun! was BBQing, cmi la the bbq.. hahax. saw some pretty girls also =) den after bbq when to ride bike, was riding the whole night hahax= from ecp ride to bedok jetty 1st. nice place to bring ur loved ones there. very nice>.< den after tt when to changi village. fucking long journey from bedok jetty to changi village, needa cross the runway -.- Changi Airport -.- .. saw planes landing and taking off, the scene was so nice. saw a SQ mega top taking off beside me. was stunned! the sound of the engines! the plane look so bright at night. what a scene! wont ever forget!

the sound of the engine blowing was almost deaf! the whole freakin runway is about 6km! from 1 end to the other and we ride through there to go to SAF ferry terminal! after beside tt is changi village le, tired! but fun! my Subaru won every1 when goin to changi village, but when comin back it become tutu car -.- damn .=)

what a day to relax and make me not think of anything! =)

btw Rain! wan go malaysia at the end of the year hur? okie on! but u nt my type de , lol sorry i no money feed u ar>.< so high class de.. sad! =X hahax

later FRANCE WILL WIN! WAHAHHAX gogo France!...

France to win!

what a day.

2006-07-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

cool, mornin woke up at 9.45am and rush to sch for my 10.30am class ^^ reached jus in time keke. and studystudystudy. den after school when to town to catch a movie, we wanted to catch a 4+ movie, but was told the 1st row onli, so we watched the 6.45pm show. onli 5ppl remained. the rest go home liao T_T the show is *Recycle*

a horror story.

kinda scary but im lost of the feeling called FEAR. since 07/08/05... i feel nthin already. >.< no kick. but the show has a very very touching and sad part. tt make me wanna CRY =).

Parents are the best ever human being u can have in ur life. dont ask for anything more. treasure them for they may leave the next minute. at tt moment, i so so so miss my mum and dad and my sis sososo much. how i can hug them and say i love u dad/mum/sis. =)

dangdangdangdang.. cherish them before it is too late. i made a mistake once and i do not wish for it to repeat. =) i've grown thx to you and now seeing you have a boyfriend.. im feeling happy for you my friend =)
no1 knows the future, no point guessing. jus go on with life as we use to be and be HAPPY!..

Once together, Not forgetten. MEMORIES .....

the day that came.

2006-07-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

finally heard u have a bf, and it is HIM!. cool! good luck to u guys =). i've grown up , so its the different me u all will be seeing again! =)

i rather stay single! why give up the whole forest just for a tree when we are still young! =0

i jus known another ESTHER. calls her rainrain!=) whata a cutie pie she is. kekex get well soon my fren yea!.. study hard for O lvl! lol

and my darling cheryl mei ar, bu yao xiang tai tuo le, u got jere(my bro!) there for you de! smiles u guys will be happy! whahax!

good luck ... =(

..

2006-06-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

When to marina jus now with my ah mei arh! =) so long didnt see her, finally get to see her. cool. when to ritz calton but dare not go in -.-" dont know got what high event goin on, all the managers waiting for some1 to come, scary hahax. den when to marina walk walk, cool, saw a designer shop, so nice the lamps , furniture. =)

goin back there again someday, wanna get some clothes also, IP ZONE@ Marina =)

now study for exam ba, no mood go in relationships again. bored. tired. just study and get on with my life better. =) adios

i dont hate or blame anybody, smile, every1 is equal in my stand. i dont hate ppl even if they say me, what for. we onli have 1 life, live it to the fullest. =) i can forgive everything, can u?

2006-06-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

hm..
who is carm and chem? same ppl i suppose? you love to scold ppl hur? why dont search urself before scoldin ppl? does this concern you? i dont think so. if not why kp so much? you dare not reveal urself yet u behind kpkb, scare? i suppose. if u dare to scold, pls dare to admit, scadi cat. yawn.

talk so much yet dare not reveal urself, if u dare not reveal pls dont write, a disgrace to the person who is writing. im suppose to be condemned? yea maybe, but this is because some1 said SUPER many retard things bout me when i didnt do it -.-? reveal urself if u wan to continue to write. no problem revealing urself. unless u are afraid? =) afraid if so , pls do not write, dirtying the place.
and and ohoh, jus to say u guys are busybody. who are you to question about my problems? unless u are esther. busybodies hur. talk all u wan, i dont care anyway. i know what im doin and how life is goin to be for me in the future. im not so like u retards, come nag at the tagboard, yawn..

get a life ppl. =)

-_-||

2006-06-13T11:39:00.000+08:00

so many ppl scold me, aiya, all ended le la, scold la scold la. wan condemn me go condemn la. now i single le la, happy rite. 6more months onli,REN. Seen my blog? go ahead lor. i am sure i nv contact her already. you said i lie to you, i onli know i met her when we were not together, and when u ask, i said nv meet le, and i realli nv meet. believe or not up to u ba.

ysterday you went to watch movie, i didnt wanna disturb u. my fault. suddenly u didnt reply me, my fault. i cant go out this few weeks, so many problems now. how to go out u tell me, haix. family problems dying hai.

you wanna end it? den end lor, what can i do. everybody's condemnin me.

tagboard so many ppl scold me. long over le still got scolded, scold lor. i dont care,

yawn..

got girl no girl still same. school, home.

6more months, let me pass!

esther, i dont know what the hell i did, i didnt betray u, i love you and i always treated you like a gf. but nvm now, its over. sad? yea, sad. but what to do? everybody is blamin me for everything. den blame lor.

Woo~

2006-06-10T02:33:00.000+08:00

OVER LA..

nana whoever u are, u can scold me , i dont mind, but please respect me. thx. tell me ur name before u do anything yea. anyway im fine now already. life's back to normal, pearlin? nahz, she is just another girl whom is in the past already. she is making fun of me now, what for? at least i have esther. =)

And moreever, she deleted me from her blog. so its over i guess. girls are easy to change man. its onli whether you know how to treasure them. i've learnt alot from pearlin. i've grown. =) say me useless or whatever, i dont care. cause u are not me =). the old me is dead.

maybe its thanks to pearlin tt i grow, THANK YOU PEARLIN!. wish u good luck with him, and oh! sry, he said only friends? tt's sad. dont sad ya. there are still many other boys outside =)

u can forget me easily, so can i. wooo~.~

and whoever like to see my blog, see more =) cause this blog is goin to end soon. curse me more , bam me more!. woo! =)

LIFE?

2006-05-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .?
I've Waited until im DRY already. haix.
its time to let go already ya.
i must move on with life.
no more hope between us already.
I Give Up.

I rather be single or be with esther already. At least i know there is still some1 that love me.

but now, i guess single is the only choice already. SAD.

i dont know what girls are thinking, when the chance is there to take already, i've took it and suddenly everything goes missing. she is gone, decided to treat me like mirror again. and i dont know what the HELL is happenin to my class. it seems like ppl are condemning me. FUCK what did i do? Why must they care about my problem? WHY.

Why cant they just care about their own problem?

8 more months and im gone from this class, bad experience. haix. im looking forward to get my ass out of here. SHATEC? bad choice already. sob

Yu ting, if you see this, the chance has come and gone, we may have a future in the future, we may not. but you are letting me wait too long and you are not caring or bothering about me at all. sad? i suppose. i dont deserve all this anyway. get on with ur life and go get ur WPL. if possible, stop contactin me already cause i will stop contacting you. i must! you have get on with ur life, i must to!

Life just suck, will you come back to me once again please? T_T

yawn..

2006-05-24T21:51:00.001+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

I Think its time i give up ba, you are already waiting for WPL, there is no point for me to wait knowing i have no chance.

haix. its time its time. i know i will regret it, but there is nothing i can do anymore. The hope has come and gone already. you are not letting me have the chance and WPL is more important then me now. good luck with him ba. In the 1st place, i shld not have let you come into my life again when we are over. stupid me hur.

ok thats it..

im sick today, thats stupid. can't go to school
needa see doc . got fever, flu,sore throat. crazy hur. but nvm still, a day to get me cool down and relax. getting back all my sleepiness ^^

tml needa go back school le, it sux. >.<

hai, will i regret what i will be doing? hope i wont haix

yawn..

2006-05-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

2006-05-17T19:57:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life was still you, and everything was how it used be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it doesn't. Although we have been apart for a while, and now have diferent loves in our life, I still can't help wondering how your life is, and when I catch you glancing at me, I can't help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when I see you.

so sad. feelings passing through my brain, surrounding it, making it addicted to you again. I wanna have another future with you ting. But i don't know if that is possible anymore. I really hope it is possible. I've changed just to be with you again. Lao Mu, please give me another chance, wo hui hao hao zhen xi de.

I dont know what you are thinkin now, but i hope you are considering having another fresh with me, i hope that is possible. Asking me to give up is like askin me to take a knife and kill myself. i can't do it cause i love you, i wanna let you see the NEW me.

i hope i can be with you again yuting.

i love you =(

Another Chance Available?

2006-05-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

Waiting And Waiting . . .

is there another chance available for us? i hope there is. give me another chance to allow us to be happy together again.

YuTing, i'm happy i can meet you on friday. I'm really happy. Please allow me to be able to make you happy again. I know it's difficult, but please give me another chance. I promise you that you will be happy again. I wanna be there for you, i wanna share your problems. Pearlin, let us get back together again ke yi mahz?

I'm very excited that i can see you on Friday.

I won't be like the olden days already. I've grown up and i know what to do already. I wanna call you *DEAR* again, i wanna hug you again, i wanna be by your side again. If you ever look into this blog, give it a thought.

I know its hard for us to be together, you may not have any feelings for me already, but i don't wanna give up, i'll try to make feelings between us stronger. i just need you to agree to it. i don't want to miss this chance.

God created this chance for me again, i'll try my fullest to treasure it. Ting, please give me another chance, Im sorry for the past, but let me be the one to make you happy again.

I Love you.

clueless

2006-05-15T17:16:00.000+08:00

Is it better to be single? guess so hur.

so many problems started to come.
tiring already
let me off pls!

Yuting, i wanna be with you again, give me another chance ya? i'll wait for the day to come. Don't leave me alone T_T. If the chance for us to be together again is ruined, why must god arrange for us to meet on that day? Why is god making it look like there is a chance for us to be together again, but it is actually not? As long as there is still feelings, i'll wait for the day to come. I don't wanna give up and i won't. Unless you tell me you have no more feelings for me, then will i give up. I have no choice. 9 months already, you came back into my life once again, i know there is still a chance, give both of us a chance again?
Possible?
I know it is possible, put hope in it ting.
I've changed, I'm different already, i've corrected all my mistakes. Give me another chance please!
Wo Fang Bu Xia , Ni Ming Bai Mah !!

Esther, i'm sorry. I'm trying to forget her but i just can't. Sorry. I rather be single. i'm sure you will get a better guy out there. You may hate me for doing this but i think this is the best solution for both of us. Sorry.

Well for school life, it is fun, good service skills i've learned. Im aiming to be in the tourism line. Manager- To - Be !! in the tourism industry! =)

YuTing, I'm waiting for you to come back to me once again.

life .. . .

2006-03-31T01:06:00.000+08:00

jus get my nafa letter. it is unsuccessful haix. so now, i am left with shatec. i hope i can get in and to be able to pursue my tourism course still. haix..

why must life be so hard for me.. all i wan is jus for me to be able to study.. i dont wanna go in to NS so soon. i still miss the outside world. im still not prepared haix.. WHY MUST GOD MAKE SUCH A HARDTIME FOR ME.. WHY CANT HE JUST LET ME GET INTO MY INTEREST COURSE.. WHY!. im screwed!

all people now are enjoying their life. why? cause their studies are already planned.. all done nicely. but for me? it's screwed.. haix

life is nv easy, but cant it there be at least a light shown to me and tell me the way?

im so lost, im so scare. this is the 1st time im scare .. i have no place to study.. seeing ppl goin in to jc , poly. im so happi for them.

i know i studied hard for my O's. but i still didnt do well.. its badly done .. haix

i regret goin sec5, i shld have gone to ite sooner and i could be well on my way to poly le. haix. i am so stupid!

but there is nothin i can do now. all i can do is to soak in the world of misery for me. haix..

i wanna retake my Os. but i cant do it private. i cant defer off.. it is not allowed. life is so unfair.
haix. why cant the government jus change a little small rule tt it can be defered. im so lost.

any1 help? T_T

why am i born into this world after all. it is onli for us to suffer hardship and not much of happiness. the world changes , so do us. the old dies and the young turns old. what for? all jus for the sake of living. life is full of crapz! do well and be rewarded, do badly and be kicked. life is nv fair!

i hate myself!

31/03/06

the day where shaun is gone from this world.

dadada

2006-02-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

Long time no write.. hm.. cause lol.. busy with work la.. so no time la.. hahax. also not much ppl see mahz.. dot .. ok la now no work le can rest le ^^ .results also comin out le.. wth.. so scary.. wan me die ar.. wan me die also not so early mahz
i haven xiang shou life le.. sob wan me leave world so early.. -.-"

lazy write la.. SONG RULES.. SEX IS NOT THE END!!! TECHNO!

taiwan =)

2005-12-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

jus came back from taiwan.. 8 days passes so fast. hai. time flies. i miss taiwan, i miss my jies. Especially Wang Qi and Wang hwa. hais. i miss them Sob... T.T

onthe 9th of december, went to taiwan. but plane DELAYED! due to some faulty engines. so not safe to fly. flight changed to next day on the 10th december at 6.30am! so we have a free night at traders hotel by China Airlines. didnt slp tt night, was playing poker with my friends. next mornin go airport. the plane was so small -.- stupid! but nevertheless, it is able to fly. so ok.. reach taiwan le, den take bus go sheng wei. reach sheng wei about 1+? there already so many ppl. and we got our rooms and when to put our bags, but we have no rest. we have to immediately go down to the listenin hall and start lesson. i onli know that i am sleepin all the way. Most of my friends also sleeping.. =) taiwan alot of things to say ar. lazy say.

we went to alot of places, go buy alotof food, take pics.

den soon goin to last day le. friday goin back to singapore. fast hor. hais. den on e plane back to singapore that time, cannot land, air traffic congestion. duh! so plane must fly around singapore for 10mins more -.- after tt land le, after my plane land, behind was a SINGAPORE AIRLINES MEGA TOP. stupid! compare to my plane, it is -_- sianz. so when out of e plane le, when to buy wine. den check out le. take luggages and when home. now at home le. i miss taiwan. i mis the times when we all played with no worries and all of us are together. hai.

jie.. i miss you.. in taiwan i still rmb we ride bicycle, at night somemore. so fun and cold. with onli a few touch light and no supporting light. hais jiE.. i will hao hao join QSN 1. i will listen to you de! jie.. take care!

happy birthday to me!

2005-10-23T00:13:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to SHAUN SHAUN
happy birthday to me!!!

lame!!! but i like it.. bleh!

until now received 5sms NIA.. BOO! sian! no fun! but IM 17 YRS OLD!! WEE!!!! HOHO!!!!

IM OLDER BY 1 STUPID YEAR!!!!! IM MATURED!!. im mad =)

now need study hard already! O lvl! gambatte!!!! gogogogogo!! bOO!!

whOO!O!O!O!O!O!.. ok lazy type le wahhaz

HELLO!

2005-10-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

hoho! ok 3 more days to O lvl science practical. scare? of cus. but what to do. hope god can help me.. ok today had graduation ceremony. leaving school le. so sad!! i miss my rabbit, my friends, my snow white, my nut, my shimin!! >,<. but no choice, sec school life is OVER! today was a memorable moment. feelin to describe it is unbelievable SAD!. its finally over for my sec school life, i dont wanna come back again. so im goin to do my best for O lvl! i can do it! its the last station le. chiong ar!! 15 points! here i come!

ok la now go study abit. den wan sleep le.. tomorrow go school for Science( physics) consulation! 8 - 11. im gonna sleep! but JIA YOU! hoho

adiox.

believe it or not!!

2005-10-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

omg... believe it or not lor... its like this. jus now when to kaizhi hse to study. study and study, but im thinkin of her. i miss her>,< but i think now after hearing what kaizhi's fate counting, i think i and her can forget it le ba. tell you guys what it's all abt hor.

ok here goes...

for my love life, 1st is Rachel..
it says there are times when i and her very good, den very bad. den now very good. but there is this problem that has to be over before there is a chance for me and her to be together. but it's only 1% ba. What he suan come out and what rachel said is true.. she said that there is something that have to be over 1st before she can be with me. she say she will give me a chance. i trusted in that. but my dream broke when i heard the after part of my life.. i just hope to be with her.

for my love life, 2nd is Mingsi..
it says i stead with mingsi before. there were up and downs. meaning good times and bad times. very good times and very bad times. but now i cant be with her anymore. cause the last 2 cards is a QUEEN AND KING. meaning she and another boy that is hard to brk. and its true. they like each other but haven stead. now my relationship with mingsi is very very good. in a sense that im her guardian angel as well as korkor. we share everything but the feeling of couple is not there. i understand. so im snow white's guardian angel =)

for my love life, 3rd is Alexis..
worse ever. it says on the outside, we may agree to been buddies. but in the heart, we are not even buddies. that is on her side. steady with her? no hope. give up now and normal friends can still be kept. -_-"

for my love life, 4rd is Shimin..
it says, i and her has been good last time. but now its no good.

i will overcome all this!.. my love life will be better.. no matter what happens! cause i know i do pray with sincerity.. =)

for my studies..
it says, if i continue what im doin now, i can either do very very well in the O lvl's or do very very badly for it. the chance is 50 - 50..

for my life overall..
my life cant be counted as im in the center of libra and scorpio. 23/10. my horoscope is always changin. therefore my fate changes as well. this means whatever im doin, it may come to no use. but to compansate this thing, there will be somethings to overtake it making it a good thing.another thing is that, whatever i am doin, i cant do it 100%, i will stop at 50%. and either this means that i have completed this obstacle or all my efforts have come to waste.

thats abt it ba..

amazing? but what the thing says IT's 90% TRUE!. Im Kinda depressed, but getting on with life is still my choice. pray well and study hard! gambatte SHAUN!. and finally...

I MISS YOU RACHEL!!!! i wan fate to change and let us be together even for jus a short while, im happy.!

2005-10-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

hey! ok i met my sista, Angela at lot 1 wor! on sat afternoon. she called me and i was SHOCK. such a chio gal calling me, i thought who.den i turn saw SIRU. nice name hur? hahaz. she look so pretty wor, or is it i too long didnt see you already sis? hahaz. but i was kinda blur at tt time so paiseh ar. hahaz. she say my frens SHUAI wor, den i not shuai la. wa piang. biased! -.- kabISH!..

hm.. ok now its 12.41AM.. dont know why cant sleep le.. bought a birthday present for MINGSI.. its so cute, makes me wanna laugh when ever i see it. rachel, i am intendin to get 1 for you, i miss you! =) 2more weeks ya! you promised me de hur, dont back out hor! or not i -_- le la.. sianz.. lolx.. O lvl comin le, im still slackin wahaha. kinda screwed up Prelim 2 as well.. 37 points, where the hell can i go hais.. die le die le..

DIE LE!!! go nowhere

hahaz.. anyway, any1 can buy for me CK's Perfume, the black bottle 1.. i kinda sticked to that smell already, its TOO NICE! im addicted! keke.. now the cute monkey is sitting beside me staring at me.. so cute >,< big head with small body. lolx.. next time get 1 for you my dear rachel... =0
ok la.. go sleep le la.. sianz.. Fate pls be the judge between me and her, i wanna be with her!!!

sign off,
12.47

=)

2005-10-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

today is a happi day for me!. cause i finally met my PRI SCH buddy!. lol after abt 3mths of none meeting, we met today to study!. she was like teaching me chemistry -.- so malu! >,<. seeing her again makes me so happi, dont know why hahaz. =X

Alexis, go out study again sometime ya!. teach me chem again! you teach me, i can learn sia. other ppl teach, cannot go in de.. u pro sial buddy!! hahaz. u wearing school uniform seems very cute lolx.. hm.. miss ya!..

ok here is the song I Don't Wanna Know by New Found Glory. Nice song introduced by my buddy!. =)

lyrics:
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
when they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
you didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
I never cared how I dressed before
but I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
and my clothes never fit right
I can't wait til we meet again
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know
Framed pictures start to be put on the walls
Constant visits while im out on the road
It's hard to leave sometimes
but you know where I lay my head at night
First comes heavy breathing
staring at the ceiling
What will happen next ?
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

ok.. now time to zhao already. wan to slp liao. niteXX

O.o!

2005-10-01T18:12:00.000+08:00

hoho!. how long nv write le hurhur. hm.. prelim 2 just over, its freakin lame. the paper is like lower then o lvl standard? but i will still fail as usual. hahaz. cause im a retard who is lazy to study. but when im doin the questions, i wasnt clueless ok! i onli dont know if my idiotic answer is correct or not. wish me luck in that hahaz.!

O lvl in 1 mth time, wahaha, still haven prepare. like nthin to study le. how ar. im like study everything already. -_- stupid O lvl.. hm.. now gonna go bath la. later goin wedding dinner. so many of my friends all nv go. all pangseh me, good sial they.. idiotic... ok la.. ciaoz.

I am waiting for you to give me a chance, pls give me a chance, i've been waiting for a very long time already. waiting waiting waiting waiting. wonder if you will ever find out about this blog of my. wahahahz. fate fate fate.... good luck to me ba!...

goin to bath! just came back from soccer. woot! im a left winger! accuracy 100% strike! whaah....

ciaoz/

-_-||

2005-09-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

hello!. today didnt go to school. WHY? lazy. no mood for school. so when out to fren's hse. shle be goin there at 11am, but i woke up at 12.30pm-.- so when there at 3pm. wanna study, but instead, play com there. till 7pm. go to teck whye mac study till 10pm. cool izint it. hahaz

got to know 1 gal. her name is AIN. she is ^.^ but she is a malay -_-. duh. haha so make frens la. more frens e merrier rite. =D

my stupid sore eyes still there, but getting better le. now left abit, STILL MUST GO SCHOOL!. bored -.-" i still misses her. T.T if there is a chance again, i wanna be with her. sob!! god pls give me another chance to make up for my past mistakes. i cannot forget her. thats miserable -_0
God, if u wan me and her to end, PLS let me forget her, if not DONT make me and her end will ya! T.T

Its hurting yet miserable... human beings duh................................

ok. im gonna slp. im already half dead. ciaoz

Sick.

2005-09-07T16:07:00.000+08:00

Im Sick, thats it. having sore eyes for the past 2 days. get it from my fren. that idiot.. on sunday, met him for some activities with some other frens. he has 1 red eye but he doesnt know that it is infected. unknowingly, i got it together with some of my other frens, now both my eyes are kinda swollen. and this friday, i shld be goin to my cousin's birthday party, but cause of this, i have only abt 30% of chance of going. baka!!!.

im also having prelim next week, how am i gonna study. i either don't have any mood in studying or i tend to sleep. argh! painful eyes. dig them outta me!?!?

im gonna get some slp, stupid idiotic life.

IM DEPRESSED!

2005-08-28T21:44:00.000+08:00

its been A FEW WEEKS, but i still cant forget her. its hard T.T.. im under depression? >,< i can neither smile nor cry, its worse then been sad. argh!. i think now she is enjoying her life.. hais. im depress! how how how, how to overcome it. help me! i dun wanna to continue again. its very hurting. i cant study, i cant play. IM SCREWED. dead. hais. think she got a new lover le. may she be well with him. sianz. how am i goin to cope with my O im DEAD!!! HELP!! FUCK MAN!.

its over!! hais.

2005-08-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

today is 8/08/2005. hais. 06/08/2005, this is the day me and her ended. she broke up with me, hais. on the 10/08/2005 is our 11mths together, but hais. i am realli realli realli very down now. im rooted to the ground, i cant move anymore. my studies, my life, my frens, all have come to a stop, im a lonely person liao. i wun be the shaun u guys used to know anymore. hais sorry hais. tc pals.

What Is Life?

2005-07-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

hais.. today is 3th july 2005, halfway in my prelim 1 exams, i know im goin to flung it. maths paper 2 is a goner for me. 60marks dun know how to do. T.T science also another goner subject. it SUX man study. and today when for soccer trainin, ran for 10rounds. tts something tt will kill me. and after tt played a game with the under 14s. for fuck we lost, 3 of our *best* players when over. and i was a striker. and for fuck i didnt get much of the balls cause my teams players seems to be blind. and i shouted like hell, no1 noticed. and for once, i shoot and it jus flew abit wide. but i got scolded for it. and they say the strikers sux. omg. i didnt get any through balls from midfield, how am i goin to play? FUCK MAN! and when they shoot fuckin wide, i didnt say anything. knn... hais.. what is life? does any1 know what is it? it sux for all i know. Soccer? i loved it, but im hatting tt game now. hais.. all i wan is some sports to play in, is tt wrong guys? is it?

why

why

why

hais... anyway, good luck to all for e oncoming exams.

here is the song lyrics titled: Chapter Four by Avenged Sevenfold.

Conceived and born was one of light (give me your hand)
(blood is spilt and man will follow)
Rain and dark, the other born black night (infernal man)
(punishment too great to bear)
Raise your head and taste the courage
(the one of light)
Fall from grace, unholy night
I've come here to kill you,
Won't leave until you've died
Murder born of vengeance,
I closed my brothers eyes tonight...
Conceived and born was one of light (give me your hand)
(blood is spilt and man will follow)
Rain and dark, the other born black night (infernal man)
(punishment too great to bear)
Raise your head and taste the courage
(the one of light)
Fall from grace, unholy night
I've come here to kill you,
Won't leave until you've died
Murder born of vengeance,
I closed my brothers eyes tonight...
It's cold tonight as the clouds turn grey
And from my hands to my brothers grave
You took his side, you took his gift,
Feel the power of a fallen man, crestfallen man...
Far away in this land I must go,
Out of the sight of the One.
A punishment sent from his hand
A hardship no one should know
Now go out of the sight of the One,
Away in this land you must go.
Where has he gone? What have you done?
A voice commands from high above this earth.
From the soil I hear his blood cry out to me
Murder, liar, vengeance, deceit.
(Far away in this land I must go,
Out of the sight of the One
A punishment sent from his hand
A hardship that no one should know
Out of the sight of the One)

hiya ..

2005-06-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

Yo!.. lol.. wat nv write.. lazy nia.. ok la.. stupid sch la.. everyday got remedial or dunno wat courses de la.. waste time.. o lvl practical on e 23/6/05 sia im scare!!! can i cook well =.=" haha god! pls help me!>.<.. hey alexis, im in e same situation as u hahahaz.. study together ya =) sang by: NSYNC title: This I Promise You

LYRICS:
Ooohh, oohhhhhh
When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounding you are secret and lies
I"ll be your strength,I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it"s gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along...
REFRAIN:
And i will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
'til the day my life is through
This I Promise You..This I Promise You...
I've loved you forever in lifetimes before
And I promise you'll never will you hurt anymore
I'll give you my world,I'll give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun..
REFRAIN 2:
Just close your eyes each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
'til the day my life is through
This I Promise You
This I Promise You
BRIDGE:
Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be livin' at all..
(Repeat Refrain and refrain 2..then Coda)
CODA:
Every word i say is true, this I promise you
Ooohhhhhhh..I promise you..

end!

2005-05-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. long time no write ar.. aiya i lazy la.. bored.. sch , life all zz
dunno why must take O lvl so sian, no mood study sia, hoW! HOWHOWHOW+.="
any1 can help me.. im dying of studies. i keep on having distraction off it -.- argh!!! -,- ppl keep on ask me blog haha ok ar.. now im SICK.. didnt go to schz today, cant stand up, stupid fever.
go see doctor also so long, i wait there for 45mins b4 it is my turn sia.. im dead by then lols, after tt went to buy food to eat, no wei cou to eat la.. keep on wanna slp, den body very weak. hehe =D now im starving.. lol parents have come home no food to eat =.="

I love u My MIMI.. tts my Pearlin darling ^.^

hee!

2005-05-04T10:50:00.000+08:00

yoyo.. now in sch.. doing F&N coursework.. so cold =.=" hm.. nowdays sian ar.. stupid sch.. getting bored.. boring-.-" sian sian sian.. i wanna see mua pri sch frens.. lol miss them le.. hor got time meet up ya guys? ok arh.. cant type too much.. teacher kp-.-" mm..... blog again other time.. adios

=)

2005-03-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

high low guys! long time no write le.. today den write la hor nvm 1 la hor... =) btw my blog haven ok ar.. i lazy do le.. can any1 HELP me do tagboard? i lazy do le -.-" ah ru!! i know u very gd 1.. so hor if u see hor den do me a favour la sis.. k? k? haha =) i will be v. grateful de hahaz.. eh ok la me now and her very gd ar.. think can last FOREVER! =) haha ok la dun type le later stupid blog cannot work again -_-!!! take care to any1 WHO will READ my blog =x bb..

*Tru3 Lov3 Nv Di3s*!

heres the lysics of :
Top Of The World By The Carpenters!

Such a feelin's coming over me
There is wonder in most ev'ry thing I see,
Not a cloud in the sky got the sun in my eyes,
And I -- won't be surprised if it's a dream.
Ev'rything I want the world to be,
Is now coming true especially for me,
And the reason is clear - It's because you are here,
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the -- top of the world lookin'
down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found, ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
Something in the wind has learned my name,
and it's tellin' me that things are not the same,
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze,
there's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me.
There is only one wish on my mind,
When this day is through I hope that I will find,
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me,
All I need -- will be mine if you are here.
I'm on the -- top of the world lookin'
down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found, ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world
I'm on the -- top of the world lookin'
down on creation and the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found, ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

2005-03-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yo Yo.. long time no write le hor... hm.. must study hard le wor.. aimin for 18 points for O lvl wor.. aiming to be with mua honey forever also wor ^^.. anyway now its 11.52pm.. im missing her... i love her >.<

muaHAHah

2005-02-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

bleahs..
EveryDay, The Sun Rises In The Mornin.. When This Happens, All The FLowers Blossoms.. In E Evenin, The Sun Sets And The Moon Rises Along The Sea, Upon The Sea, There Is A Couple Seating Side By Side Holdin Each Other Tightly.. And At That Moment, The Boy Said To The Gal: Day By Day It Past, Day By Day We Are Ageing, But 1 Thing 4 Sure Is That My Love 4 U Will Nv End.. I LOVE U.. nice? haha =x i think de den write give mua dear.. i love u honey ^^ jus now when kaikai with dear den bought a doggy for her.. now its my turn to stick her le.. love sick T.T hehe but i like it.. =x anyway.. i gtg slp le nitenite >.

Now Playing: Boa's Every Heart

bleahs

2005-02-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

Honey: valentine day over le hor.. hm... dunno why sad sad le me.. why ar i keep on askin things.. hais.. sorry le.. i will TRY to change.. but how T.T.. days without u disturbin me is boring .. Dear I Love U !!! Together Always !!! ^^ but can u tell me everything abt ur past >.< listen =P

can any1 tell me how to change? i dun wan to always keep askin abt mua darling past relatonship.. any1 can help!! PLS!!!

hais.. what is happenin???

2005-02-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

hais.. now this stupid problem has started.. my galfriend starts to get no confidence in this relationship.. what did i do? ah ru is onli a SISTER to me.. den got 1 fucker at her blog put i am nt a gd person.. am i? if i am i admit.. but if i am nt.. say me also no USE.. so whoever tt fucker.. pls stop saying ppl and think abt urself BA.... dun come say abt ppl if ur nt tt gd as well... hais.. see tt comment made me feel so sad.. no1 had ever say tt abt me b4 =*(.... today my gf mother played a game with me.. no1 is allowed to contact each other.. me and my gf i mean.. de ni go along with e game la.. cause i thought jus a game mahz so hahahaz.. den i got soccer trainin somemore... hais.. den come home.. chatted with ma dear.. den she sounds so sad like what did i do? i told her means i did nt keep anything from her wat.. if i wanna keep things from her i wun even tell her anything lor.. hais.. so sad...

to Dear: i onli wanna tell u.. nthin had change.. AH RU is onli my SISTER and WE TREAT OTHER AS BRO&SIS.. nthin else.. i hope u TRUELY understand it.. u have no confidence? yea maybe cause i am a fucker... i onli know how to make ppl sad yea.. u didnt cared abt me since yesterday.. even a gd nite was like bu shuang like tt.. den mornin thought will have a message from u.. but dont have.. waiting.. until i message u.. hais.. maybe i'm nt gd enough for u ba? =(

i also wanna tell u.. i still wanna carry on this relationship.. tc ba.. i love u

SO DAMN TIRED NOW.. FUCKIN SOCCER.. I LOST MY FORM! ARGH! I AM DEAD..

TiReD

2005-02-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

sch Stresssss ar.. stupid sch.. i fail so many subjects.. can die le.. jus now when to take ma specs. yeayea finally i got a specs le.. jus now went to Chinatown to take. i wear le look more decent wor... den after takin e specs, i g omeet ma sis and hre bf.. den when to walkwalk lor.. so hot.. so me and ma brother in law go around and talk talk play play..den talk too much later turn back cant find my sis and mum le =x.. so we stand there wait and finally saw them hehe.. so when to CK the department stall. den ma sis bought the slippers.. mum also bought 1. i wanted to buy1 de but see le like girly.. lolx so nv buy.. den go eat dessert nice le haha =x after tt bought a watch for 10bucks. ^^ i need to take out 4 of the thing to make it jus nice for me 0,0 my hand is so small ^^! after tt go makan.. den later go home le... in e bus all laughin all the way.. so fun!!! next time must come out again.. this time must ask my honey come.. die die also wan to ask her come.. hehez...

to dardar: honey i love u !! from laogong^^!!

to ah ru: be hapPy ^^

hohoho

2005-01-20T15:18:00.001+08:00

ok fuck wat i write all gone.. tag broken argH! angry!! nvm i now at ngee ann poly... later den write le fed up! Zzz

hohoho

2005-01-20T15:18:00.000+08:00

yo now i am ngee ann poly... hm.. come for e open hse.. i wan go to business management!!! >.<>.

ah ru sis!: hey dude... dun feel sad le.. cheer up.. no point feelin sad because of a fucker.. he's nt worth ur love.. now concentrate on studies and play ! have fun!!! fun fun fun fun!!! take care and luv ya! ")

sign off: shauny.>.

if something is urs it is, if nt it will nt be....

2004-12-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

hiyee...... this mornin woke up at 11am.. played maple.. lolx was so lazy to lvl.. so chatted in e game... was meeting my gf at 12.30pm to watch movie but changed to 1 later :X reached lot1 at 12.58pm... received a sms from her saying she will be late as the bus haben come.. so waited.. she smsed me again and say she took the wrong bus -.- and told me to get e movie ticket.. so i went to get it.. i am broke le.. my parents didnt give me for a month!! no cash on ma hand.. had to take my own de lai use.. hais.. broke now *crying*~~ den after e movie.. my gf found out tt her HP lost le.. i when to e cinema to find it but hais.. to no avail.. i feel very guilty hais.. i wanna hug her jus now but she dun allow.. she scare she will cry.. but.. i was like i dun wan her to cry or else i will also.. in PUBLIC no way!!! after tt was feelin sad and she was like hais..dunno la..

she went home, i went to catch movie with my friends, no mood.. after e movie i was like sianz.. i am nt as gd as my friends with gals.. he is always better den me.. he is my BRO! but nvm... down to my fate hais.. after tt went home.. nv eat dinner.. sian now gastric pain le!!

help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolx..

to ah ru: sis! ruru! i wan to tell u tt i hope ur parents understand me.. or it will be very hard for me to have any chats with ur parents in e future.. i dun wan tt to happen.. hais.. i realli do.. i also wanna tell u.. u and him is over.. try to forget him.. there are better ppl out there.. u have many chances.. give others a try... be strong and dun be weak.. dun let dark clouds surround u... let the sun rise again.. smile, laugh , jump , bounce be happi! all i wanna say also..

I LuRVe U Sis! siru~ i onli wanna say this.. i will always support u 4eva.. muackz.. i lurve u... take care olways.. call mi anytime u wan.. tc.. bb

sign off: shaunY~~

hais...

2004-12-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

hi every1... sch startin le hor sian le must study again. study study study.. next yr *O* lvl le, cannot play le must STUDY -.-" this holiday go alot of holidaysss ar go taiwan , sunway lagoon , den go charlets somemore.. happi me ^^ but come to love life.. it sux -.- why am i like tt.. i feel very stress.. is loving some1 so hurtful? hope i can stop thinkin abt alot of things ZzZzZ...

to siru: yo sis! hows ya! ^^ heard tt ur love life has ended.. no worries! still got many ppl out there wor like reuben? try ba :) i will support u de.. althought i prefer u to be with me lorz =x but i know tt is IMPOSSIBLE.. so i can onli dream.. :( anyway forget ur past.. if a person truely loves another person they wun mind anything.. i think? siru mei.. ur e closest to me during e holidays le.. i love it when we are in taiwan and all those time spent with ya.. i will keep it as a memo in an invisible box and throw it somewhere until the day where we both found it.. u understand wat i mean? lol hope ya do or else ya a TOOT gal la =x j/k~ lols.. anyway CHEER up man! come' on Lets RoCk!~!~!~! misSSsss ya..

to all my peepz out there: Yo PeepZ.. any1 who read this if wan to reply go ahead =x
How ya guys doin now! N lvl results out le sad hor some of them go ITE.. but what to do fate mahz muahahah~~ so guys study hard and pass our O lvl ne! dun fail hor! show the babi singapore government tt N lvl students wun fail 1! haha i am mad adios!!

sign off: sHaUnY aka Shaun -.-"
12.07am 27/12/2004

i am an OWL!

2004-11-19T04:33:00.000+08:00

yo now time is 4.33am.. it is a friday mornin.. i am still awaka with ma cousin.. he is talkin to pearlin abt his ex stead problems.. now his ex stead got another stead meaning she treated my cousin onli as a spare tire.. hm. details ask me.. lazy write.. anyway later at night goin home le.. sianzz tml still got CAMP..

jus now went to chinatown pei ma cousins take their work pay.. after tt go play arcade so fun ^.^ too bad huanni nv go.. haiz.. i miss her :( i wanna treat her like ma own SISTER.. but it is hard.. she stays in e east area while i stay in e WEST area-.- kinda far ya? =.=! jus now when i was in e bus goin back.. i saw something tt made me think of an ex stead called shimin.. tt was e time when she needed to go to e centro near esplanade there so i pei her.. she was so ..... it is like omg.. i thought i have found e right gal but i was wrong :( so sad.. i still cant forget e feeling when i was there with her.. it is my 1st time i bring a gal there and we chatted from 7pm- 10.30pm.. the wind was so nice>.<

to Yuting: yoyo dear.. dun jealous after wat u see ok? i say out everything meanin i got nthin to hide.. i tell u how i feel.. but is onli at tt place my stupid feelings came back.. i trying to forget it le.

to Joshua: Yo cousin, dun feel sad over ur ex.. SHE IS A BITCH! A SLUT FUCKING SLUT.. get ur revenge ask me to help if ya need.. 24hr hotline :) but dun get me in trouble can le.. i hate polices>.to Justin: ah u too young to understand anything LOLX j/k dun always say back to ur bro.. he has alot of problems ba? give way to each other u 2 idiots! haha :X

to Huanni: hey mei.. fate dun let us meet often, fate dun allow me to be ur real bro, fate dun allow us to see each other,but i still will pray hard for u.. i wanna be ur bro.. i will take care of u as long as i can.. ur a gal tt i believe can sore to the skys... cheer up and be happy any probs come chat with me :)

ok as for me.. I AM GETTING PAnda EyeS GoOoOOod NiTE~~~~

adios..~ ;)

hoilday sian le=.=

2004-11-17T10:50:00.000+08:00

its still holiday? so boring.. so now i am at my cousin hse.. i rather go to his hse den stay at home and rot..

hm.. i jus wanna say.. huanni.. how ur feeling abt ur parents lag of love is similar to how i lag of my sister love, but we have to be strong and continue with life.. if u feel sad or troubled come talk to me or joshua.. we will try as many ways to help u.. i treat u as my real sister as i wan to realli care for some1.. we onli have 1 life so wat for be sad abt it? jus be happy and enjoy.. ur mum must be too stress at work so when she came home , she scolded u.. u have to understand tt.. i everyday also kanna scold by my parents without fail.. u said tt ur mum doesnt care abt u? ur wrong.. every parent care for their child.. its onlishe didnt show it out or u cant feel it.. all parents would wan the best for their child ya knoe.. so try to understand ur mum... as for ur bro.. he is useless.. wonder why u got such a bro.. i rather be ur real bro and take care of u .. but this is fate.. i hope u will be treated better and take care.. dun give up.. kor will be here for u!

to yuting: erm.. she is jus now god sis ok.. dun jealous :X

O.o

2004-11-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

o.O hi longtime no blog le.. hm.. nt free ba and some problems occur at my BLOG zz.. ok last 4 daes i am at my cousin's hse.. but we went to ma sister chalet :) ride bike.. so cool.. finally i can see my little meimei.. huanni.. she is onli pri6 btw- .- she went to japan yesterdae :( i miss her... Sad

testing?

2004-11-11T21:57:00.000+08:00

can this work???

2004-11-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

hm.. ello? hm.. sorri ar last few daes nv blog.. lazy and forgotten also :) erm jus to say my hse is an insect palace... 2days ago 1 flying cockroach flew in ma room and i was runnin like mad.. my fathre and i was chasing it after tt.. yesterday another flyin idiot came in.. but was beaten to dead also.. ke lian ;( who ask them to come in!-.-... when job hunting yesterday.. explore orchard , suntec, bugis , marina center , esplanade... no jobs available -.-! i am gonnnnna die! any1 got lobang? jie shao yi xia le~~ plsSsSs >.www.mapleglobal.com lolx ... ^.^ BORING DAE!